Ladybugs

Sometimes little children can be so wise.

I went to visit one of my cousins today, and while I was there she asked me if I would watch her six year old daughter for a half hour so she could go to the store. I wasn't feeling much like it, but it would only be for a little while so I said ok.

My mind was all over the place trying to kick out some negative thoughts that have been lingering as of late. You know, new job worries, and general grown folks' woes. I guess lil mama could tell because rather than run amok like she normally would, she got up in my lap on the couch and laid her head on my chest.

Lil One: "Tasha, what's wrong?"

Me: "A lot of stuff on my mind. Just a little worried and sad."

Lil One: "Don't be sad. I see you crying. (wipes my face)"

Me: "Aww thanks. I'll be okay though"

Lil One: "Yes you will. 'Member no matter what happens to you, the grass is still green, the sky is still blue, and ladybugs are still red."

Me: "Why do you say ladybugs are still red?"

Lil One: "Because my mommy says ladybugs are good luck. So when you get sad think of ladybugs being red and you will have good luck. And I know you like ladybugs Tasha."

After she said that, she got off my lap and went back to playing with her Bratz dolls. She really had no idea what that statement did to me. In her little world, everything really is that simple. Sometimes with everything that we have to deal with, we forget that we are so small compared to the big world around us. I had to take three steps back and remind myself that nothing should be that serious.

When her mom came back, I went for a drive in some rural area (almost got lost too) and let out the ugliest cry I had in me. I haven't done that in so long, but it felt soo good. And what seemed like suddenly, I had all the answers I needed and my mind was back in focus. I guess it's true that little children hold the answers to adult questions.

Thank you lil cousin, you made my day. And yes, ladybugs are still red...